ToolYou are a tool
This is not to say that all men are tools
But the way you have allowed yourself to be used
I can call you nothing more fitting
Than a tool.
You have made yourself
The Knife, stabbing me in the back.
And the flame
Searing away my very last nerve,
Your words weren’t your own
But they came from your mouth.
The arrow did not come from your quiver
But was still shot
Sure and true
From your bow…
You have been a tool
Time and time again
And I have tried to save you
But you would rather hammer
The nails into my coffin
Than build your esteem…
You could have been the needle
With that stitch, just in time
But you chose to be the scissors
Cutting my life line.
You are a tool.
Had you been aware of what you were doing
I may have thought differently of you
But instead of being the man behind,
You were the gun.
This may not have been
The way you started out
But it’s who you’ve become –
I mean, ‘what’ you’ve become
Rest In Peace...So you may rest in peace,
I will breathe
For every breath you can't.
I will love
For every moment you won't.
For every joke you
Could have told
But never will.
And I'll cry
You never did.
Don't worry about me
I'll be fine over here
You just rest...
Without You...The sky is darker than I remember,
Were the stars always that far away and small?
They don't shine tonight, glowing dimmer than embers,
Was the moon always that lonely, and those trees so tall?
I'm so scared, I know I'm alone
But without you here
I feel as if the darkness of this night
Will steal my tears away
Before they can fall
Before they, too, can run away from me...
Was the night always this dark?
The noises form a giant I can't see,
But somehow still, he's chasing me.
Now there is no hand to hold,
No arm to squeeze my emotions into,
No warmth to steal into my frigid body...
Did it all disappear into the void of this night?
Re: The Greener Grass...I used to be jealous of friendships like yours
I used to want one so badly
I wanted to be on the inside
With everyone surrounding me
Until one day when I was inside...
And I realized that everyone surrounding me
Was out to get me
Or get something from me
They wanted to suffocate me...
With no escape
I was in your shoes
And they were glued to the floor
No place to run.
So now when I see you
Smiling in the middle of your crowd
I don't envy you
With your multitude of friends
I like my solitude...
Someone wise once told me
Useless things like
"Be careful what you wish for"
And "not all that glitters is gold"
But the thing is...
I'll wish because I'm curious
And sometimes gold glitters
And other times, I just want something to shine...
All that really matters
Is that I'm happy where I am
Because I know that if I'm not,
I'll want everything I don't have
And I'll stay unhappy forever...
To An Old Flame...Seems like every time you return
You take a piece of me and burn
The edges off my natural self
Now there's only ashes left.
And every time you say you want what's best
I just feel like I end up with your rejects
I'm starting to wonder why they say I'm blessed,
They don't see the ashes you left.
Seems like every time you're here
I lose another piece of myself
I'm starting to wonder if I'll have any of me left
When you leave again...
Will there even be ashes left?
My Last Memory of You...My last memory of
You is my first memory of you
Well...it's my collection of memories
That I've stacked away
Under the label of
"This is what love is supposed to look like"
And I know you don't remember
Because you left me behind long ago
But that's fine
All I need is this memory.
My last memory of you is a collage,
All of them running together
On the canvas like a stop motion film
I remember smiling a lot...
But these days
My memory's fading
I can't remember your face
Or your laugh
Or the words you used to say
I remember my blue sweater
But it's gone and so is the memory
Explaining how we got in trouble because of it.
I think I remember it being a funny story...
The kind you'd tell to your grandkids
But you don't even think of me anymore
And we won't be growing old together
So I guess that's why I forgot...
I remember the day I went to school
And heard that you had moved away...
The year that followed was the most miserable...to my recollection
But it's all become a
Mechanical + AbsenceMechanical in his absence
That's what life was and became
A torturous cycle of
Relieved only when he takes pity
Planned to imperfection
Functioning in synchronized chaos
Proclaiming that the shadows have secrets
That's what I am
Routine is my sanctuary
While his is random,
But he is absent
More often than he is present
And this heart is getting rusty
It needs to be oiled
I can't carry on....
Held back by the limits
I was programmed with
I cannot follow and I am
Eluded constantly by his "someday" answers
Energy running low
Trust on empty
Mental power on overdrive
That's what every day is
In his absence.
Say What You Want...I'm done
With keeping up appearances,
let them think what they want,
Let them hear what they want,
Let them see what they want to..
It shouldn't affect you [anymore]
And I'm done,
Smiling like everything's OK,
When I really want to curl up in bed and cry..all day
Let them do what they want,
They can say what they want,
Let them hear what they want
It's not my concern...
If you wanna make every detail
A newsflash newsflash newsflash
It's not my concern,
If you have no life
Other than mine.
Being the light of your life
When I can't find my way out of this dark tunnel
And I'm done,
Laughing like everything's OK
When I really want to be alone
Just leave me alone!
Think what you want
Say what you want
Hear what you want
It's not my concern
If you believe a lie...
Yea; so I'm done.
USMC Tribute**USMC - United States Marine Corps. **
For your country you would lay down your life
For the men and women you fight beside
For the commanders who promised to bring you back alive
But you'll never see the dawn.
All evil will perish at your hands
Intruders in those foreign lands
You do what others fear and can't
But for this you'll never be known.
The shadows lurking in the night
'Devil dogs', come end their plight
They dare to challenge American might
Hell yes! They'll get it full blown.
I respect your courage,
I appreciate the loyalty to the country of your birth,
Who can contest your gumption and girth?
You who can't truly feel the daunt of fear.
Sometimes Dead Girls Forget What Stars Look LikeThose nights insomnia catches up to me,
I imagine what the sky must look like and I count the stars
and I think, maybe they don't shine for us.
Maybe their glow is their way of crying "notice me,
I'm important and I can do good."
Perhaps they're searching for meaning in their life,
just the way we use them to search for our home across the ocean
and for a new world
and for something other than dead sea.
Maybe they're afraid of burning out
just like I'm afraid of burning down bridges and friendships
and maybe they think they're not good enough
that they could have been better,
that they could have been a sun or a planet
but they missed their opportunity.
I wonder if the stars live in cliques,
or if those constellations are their family members,
and I wonder if they ever get into fights with their parents
or run away from home
or write about it?
I bet the stars live like us,
but what would I know?
I'm just a dead girl from the grave,
and I haven't seen a star in decades.
Empty ShellI didn’t think much of it when I was little.
I didn’t notice all of the bottles
That littered the counter tops and the coffee tables.
I didn’t notice how you were always so unstable.
I didn’t think it odd for a moment
Because the whole time I’ve been around you’ve been broken.
I haven’t seen you actually happy
And it kills me.
I haven’t smelt your breath without a hint of liquor
Hiding behind it.
You’ve always walked around with a heavier shadow
The darkness sticks to you
It slowly made its way from your shoes
To your insides and ate away at them until you were left hollow.
A hollow shell.
Somewhere on the climb up the mountain you fell.
You broke all of your bones
And couldn’t make it back home.
You never saw what it was like to see from the top of that mountain.
To see that things get better,
So you never
The things that I never paid attention to when I was small
That I can see now.
And I feel so horrible
I Tried, DammitYou were
the right piece
for an old puzzle
and I broke you
trying to fit you
in a new one.
My knuckles are bleeding
and I'm screaming
at the top of my
but you're hemophobic
and too deaf to hear me.
Is This Love?Okay,
I think I finally found out what love is.
Is it when,
The sight of her,
Turns your heart,
To her element.
If so, iron man you got some competition,
Because I’m in the position to fly,
No suit needed.
When she isn’t around my heart is bleeding.
I just, want her and only her.
We can fight til morning,
But please don’t leave,
If you do, at least,
Punch a hole,
Through my soul,
So in my next life,
I will still have your imprint,
But while we are still living this one,
I want you close, no space for an indent.
We can have fun together,
Whether or not the weather is kind.
The harsh sun couldn’t burn
The galaxies I seen in your eyes.
It’s hard to define this I know,
But do you remember your first sight
Out of the womb, me either.
But I’m sure it was a beautiful creation,
Just like when I seen you.
So all I ask, is if this is love,
And you feel the same for me,
Let’s commence this operation,
In hopes to get married someday,
And dance to the Beatl
Just SmileJust Smile
The rush of the wind, right beneath your feet.
It's knocked you down, on the left of the street.
People will laugh, people will mock, and people will scorn
Sometimes, like me, you wish you've never been born.
But like my dearest friends taught me, just smile
Smile during the good times and try your darn hardest when dealing with the bad.
This world is bleak, it has a lot to frown over, so just look life in the face and grin.
Tell it, “no matter how bad you treat me. I'm not going to let you win!”
Keep moving my guy, gal, no matter what you look like or how you sound.
There's one thing hatred can't take away from from this earth,
and that's the fact that frowning is more strenuous on the face.
So make your life, and your body feel much better by
beloved/be loveddo not let someone else be your sun
fill your universe up with stars and
clouds and planets and
let others be within your
let them shine their brightest
gleam for all that they are
and all that they can be
notice their twinkle
if they dim down and
explode in a supernova
do not let them be a black hole
do not let other people's
darkness consume you
be your own sun
because the first thing you see every morning
is your own skin
and you deserve to be the center of your own universe.
.with blood in her eyes and
tears in her hands, with
dirt on her knees and
scars on her neck,
she'll hold in-
to her heart
The deserved MurderThe Deserved Murder
Whether from the inside or out
I know now that without a doubt
You’re dead, no longer a thorn in my side
Now do I care for the laws that abide
To this crime? no, for you have killed my beloved kin
With a never ending grin, time and time again.
Should I mourn because you have a family and kids
When you’ve stashed the hearts of my brethren in lids?
Fool, who do you think I am?
Some foolish man that believes in Uncle Sam?
Freedom for all and justice? Please, they do you no good.
I’m the shadow of vengeance shrouded in a black hood.
Whether the world thinks of my deed good or bad
You will never once hear me become sad.
Over a monster like you that only killed and pillage
Now if your ghost is looking at me, good, for I shall smile as I send your dead body to your village.
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